| yee-ard say-el? |
[09 Nov 2009|02:26am] |
Sooo... A friend I have here at the good old eljay did a kind of online yard sale thingy.
I figured, what the hell, why not? I've got soooo much crap sitting around right now. ....and this is just my room. I have yet to clean out my car ;)
For all of it,
( Cheapy cheap (IMAGE HEAVY) )
For various parts,
( Clothing )
( Shoes )
( Movies/Games )
( Books )
( Accessories )
( Misc. )
If you live near me, call me or something and I can arrange for us to meet and stuff.
If you don't live near me, let me know what you want and I'll let you know what it will all amount to (yknow, S/H and shtuff).
As far as how to actually pay me... I'm gonna see about using my daddy's paypal account. If you have one as well, great, let me know. If not, I'll accept a check through mail--send cash at your own risk. If I don't get the money, I can't send you the stuff. :
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| ten minutes |
[05 May 2008|01:00am] |
"Do you miss him?"
"Always."
"You know what, Sammy?"
"Hmm?"
"I love you."
"....You're an idiot."
in other news:
my friend Carrie is dead,
Cody's in ICU.
i had almost stopped by her house just yeterday....
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| My defense mechanism? |
[21 Apr 2008|01:40am] |
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So... Here goes:
I get the urge to be a boy sometimes. Especially if I see something related to it. Such as a ftm video blog. It puts some horrid little glass splinter in my mind and makes me think that I could do it if they can.
But as long as it isn't there to make me think about it, and as long as I don't read anything about transexuals or whathaveyou, I'm pretty content in my femininity. Pretty content, anyway.
So.... what the hell does that mean?
I'm comfortable playing with androgyny on the whole.... but every now and then (and sometimes it's more frequent than others) i get the overwhelming need to take it a step further.
I'm kind of depressed that I'm visiting a friend (a special friend who will see me with my clothes off) tomorrow. I can't bind my chest if I see them--and I do want to see them. :/ But I might sleep in a sports bra tonight.....
FUCK. It makes no sense. As long as there isn't anything to remind me of it, I won't worry over my gender. I'll be happy looking a little boyish in my baggy clothes. Or a little dyke-esque in my short hair cut...
And god forbid this become an issue because I might actually have a romantic thing lined up and...well, i doubt he'd take kindly to the idea that his girlfriend might actually be his boyfriend....
Or my parents. Ugh, let's not even go there or I really will not be sleeping tonight.
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| wow |
[19 Apr 2008|10:52pm] |
Look at what I found.
Was I really that juvenile?
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| fuck me |
[07 Feb 2007|05:31pm] |
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mood |
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Ok so...
you think you've got everything going for you
you think you've got more than you should have
you think you're guaranteed in
not when Murphy's riding on your shoulder....
I got a letter in the mail from U.F. today....
the envelope was small and very very thin.
( What's up in my life? )
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| Spunk out the hoo-haa |
[13 May 2006|05:40pm] |
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Geomtry--Din |
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Hey fuckers. What's up?
Sammy is totally pimping the garage grunge look today.
My fishnet jacket sets the whole look off. So yea...I'm sexy and you know it.
Aaaaannnnyyywaaay... I decided that I will cut my hair like that anime character (yea, total dork here) and then I'ma dye it purple. Sexy yo.
I thought about cutting it ultra short and then dying it bright yellow...but. well. Daddeh and mommeh and the normal society wouldn't approave...and I don't really feel like sticking out much. Plus, I just managed to grow my hair out this long. I don't want to have to wait again.
I might cut it that short when school starts. Maybe.
The boys and I (Andy, Kris, Jac, and me) are all going out tonight. We're dragging David along again for Kris. She's all gothed out. I'll post pictures if I can get any. I thought about going gothic...but decided against it. I can't really pull it off. My eyes need brown tones, not black. Aaaannnyway, again.
Note to self: Check out Punto Omega and Babel-17 (Freedom)...
Yea.
Spider1 is god.
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| Friends Only |
[19 Sep 2005|08:51pm] |
Yea...this is becoming a Friend's Only. I don't garuntee I'll add you if you ask, but whatever... *shrug*
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| Entertainment |
[17 Jul 2005|02:01am] |
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mood |
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 do stuff! now! >.> |
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music |
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Goo Goo Dolls--Broadway |
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I'm in need of a decent update.... Oh well.
( Memes )
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| Naughty |
[17 Jul 2005|12:01am] |
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 flirty |
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AFI--Dancing Through Sunday |
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ACK! AJ's being really naughty this weekend.
I was walking into the green room for my half-time break after we set the stage and all that.... Well, I opened the door and AJ was sitting at the end of the small couch. I smiled at him and as I started to walk to go get my book he grabbed my wrist and dragged me down into his lap! *fwee*
So we sit there for a bit, picking at each other, he poked me, I poked him, gave him a teddy bear face-dance (long story), blah blah. Justin came and sat on top of me (and the whole while AJ is convincing me that no matter how skinny he is, he's not getting squished. I didn't buy it, still don't....) and we did some shizzit.
Until finally I turned to Aj and said "You're getting off on this, aren't you?" because he was just torturing me to no end! Well! AJ apparently didn't hear me. So for a good five minutes I sat there denying him sed sentence and he poked and prodded, and FOUND MY TICKLE SPOT!....which is a major feet in and of itself considering where his hand had to go to find it.....but enough of that! ::AHEM::
So I still refused to say anything and he said "I will bite you" and I just grinned at him and told him to just try it. And HE DID! Right in my spot, too! LIke... the top of my shoulder... *fwee*
So... AJ's being naughty this weekend and I'm eating up as much of it as I can. *sigh* Infatuation sucks but at least I'm not pining over him like the others... I'm just taking whatever I can get! ^__^
*le sigh* I am a dork. and I really wanna read the new Harry Potter book. >.>
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| Fwee for Infatuation! |
[15 Jul 2005|11:22pm] |
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Gwen Steffani--Cool |
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LinZ, goddamit! I'm having a massive fwee moment and you aren't here to fwee to!
*cries*
anyway. Tonight... babybook moment--A guy pinched mah bootaay! ^___^;;
am I a dork or what?
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| Coming.......out? |
[14 Jul 2005|01:18am] |
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 guilty |
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music |
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Deftones--My Own Summer (Shove It) |
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Ok. So something kinda tok place late in the wee hours of the morn.
And he was asking me if I liked it. or if it turned me on.
Right in the middle of the act....
And I'm thinking--I thought he knew...I coulda sworn I'd told him....
So I just gave him some abiguous answer and left it at that. Afterwards he went to sleep....
I didn't have the nerve to tell him even if he stayed up....
i feel gilty
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| Decent update.... |
[13 Jul 2005|05:32pm] |
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mood |
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 tired (only one and 1/2 hours) |
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music |
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Pale 3--In My Head |
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I dunno if my CD was scratched prior to letting out it or not, but I really don't care anymore. Fact of the matter is I have to replace it--which probably wont happen any time soon.
I gotta save up roughly 200 dollars for Linz's BDay gift and Gavin's. Then another 120-or so for my boots.
The lights just flickered. I'll be pissed if we loose power.
Anyway... Currently I'm back to reading like a lunatic. I've finished five books with two days. I haven't slept but one hour and a half. And quite frankly...I don't feel half bad now that I'm up doing stuff.
Go see American History X! I cannot tell you how much you must see this movie. It's got Edward Norton in it (Fight Club) so go see it! It's a very sad, violent, and moving story. I recommend it to anyone who's mature enough to handle it. Which is basically anyone at the age of thirteen, possibly younger. And I have a sneeky suspicion that Daniel was played by the same guy from Another Day in Paradise--both were very sad depressing movies. But very good ones at that.
What else what else what else.....
Howl's Moving Castle was very VERY good. I can see why it came to theaters--it's a love story that has a happy ending. Very uncharacteristic for anime. There was a novel it was based on....now I wanna read that too. More library trips. Wonderful. They know me by my footsteps by now.
But yea. It was really good. Christian Bale....go figure. He suited to character well, actually. His laugh kind of scared me...but in a good way...if that makes sense. Kind of like natural, omg he could so rip me apart--SEXY, way....but we won't go into animalistic instincts.
uhm...I think that's all there is really. Nothing much has really taken place. Just the normal shizzit. Talking to Vincey-poo. How I miss him so. *le sigh*
So yea. I'll leave now... go back to my books about Native Americans, werewolves, and gay boys. tata!
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| Orderly Chaos--Chaotic Order |
[13 Jul 2005|05:13pm] |
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Don Davis--Neodammerung |
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Have you ever just watched the way rain patters onto a brick. Or the ground. Or anything for that natter. It's completely random. Random is chaos. Random is nature. Thus chaos is natural. And no one can deny this.
Look around you. At the trees, the grass, living beings--we are all individuals. Rarely do you see anything that is the same as something else, a clone. Individuality is completely unique--to the point of chaos. Look at the trees. They sprout branches in any manner that suits them. There is no order to it. Chaos.
Snowflakes are chaotic.
The only things in this world that are orderly are man-made. They are not natural. Chaos is the order of nature. Thus chaos is order (by the Transitive Property of Equality).
In short, my conclusion:
Nature is a paradox.
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| Murphy's Best Friend |
[11 Jul 2005|12:14pm] |
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((bitching. just thought I'd warn you))
You know. All I wanted was one moment of happiness. Two hours to just get away from this SHIT that I am constantly walking around in. This disgusting hell-hole that is my head and my thoughts and my feelings and everything else that has to do with my life in general.
But everytime I have a nice outing, a cool little get together, whatever--a multitude of SHIT gets thrown right fucking back at me.
When you borrow something from somebody--and granted, I'm stupid enough to loan things out!--would be so fucking difficult to take care of it?
I ask for Nestle' and you buy generic? Well, yea, there is a difference.
For once I go to bed when you want me to and you drag out some contraption that even the Devil wouldn't use for torture, that makes sounds that would wake Rip Van Winkle and you expect me to be ok with it?
Oh, and don't forget!! You expect us to be able to trust each other. So why do I have a password on my user? What have I got to hide? *shrugs* What about you and you're "sticks". I can't even hack that motherfucker.
And don't forget the countless ideas floating in and out of my head.
I like to sleep because it makes them go away.
I like to read because it blocks them out.
I like watch movies because I forget they're there.
I like any sort of dissassociative state that I can get--as long as I'm not thinking.
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[09 Jul 2005|05:49am] |
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 insomnia... |
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You are Rita.
Which Galerians Character Are You...
brought to you by Quizilla
Heh. Unfortunately, this is true. Which is probably why I have a distaste for Rita--she's the mirror of myself. I was actually expecting Cain/Rion or maybe Pat... if that was even an option. >.> I think this was only the original cast...
Hrm. Sad but true.
~~Oh btw--LinZ. This Halloween. We really do need to dress up these outfits. You're Rita. You got the body for it =P ~~~
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| Thanks a lot |
[09 Jul 2005|02:32am] |
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DMX vs. Papa Roach--X Gonna Get Away With Murder |
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Why did they applaud?
Why did Shanna hug me?
Why did they say "Thanks, Sammy", "Go Sammy"?
Shanna and Ryan always got the desk and chairs for scene...eleven? tweleve? Whatever. They always got it. Well, I was sitting in the tea room, paying attention to the play like every night. And AJ asks if I was getting the desk. I said no. He said, are you going to cover? And I just shrugged. I didn't even realize that it was actually in the room. I thought Shanna and Ryan had already set it behind the curtain. They hadn't apparently. So after the cue and the lights I realize, oh shit, and AJ's telling me, you gotta get it, and I'm thinking shitshitshitshitshitjesusshitfuckingshit. or something like it.
So I grab the table and stagger up onto stage, place it where I figured it would go and ran back down to get the chair--I grabbed the table that was radar's and it still had the phone on it. Why would a shrink have a phone on her desk? stupidstupidstupid--and found the Larry had run to grab the chairs. Without really thinking I grabbed one, the other Larry gave to the actress coming on stage, and tossed it where I figured it'd go.
Then I got off stage faster than lightening.
And everyone thanked me. everyone applauded. WTF.
I fucked it up, guys. I really did. I shoulda been there. Right there with the right desk, the chairs, everything. I shoulda been prepared. And I wasn't.
Why the fuck did you thank me for that?
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